Current mood: Super super emo max
I think I'm rather emotional sometimes, always get affected when results are lousy. I know some might think I'm damn irritating cos my results aren't really bad but there're times when I seriously feel like shit, like now.
I didn't hold high expectations for my ghomgt project, but I didn't expect such a lousy grade, which made a lot of difference as compared to others. I've seen other people's work and seriously, I don't see the vast difference in the standard produced. I know there must be certain confirmation bias in me but I actually think that my group's project is better than at least one or two that had better grades than my group.
I seriously don't get it. Whenever we tried hard and meet the teachers' expectations, it's seriously up to fate because everyone has different definitions of good work. And for poor students like us? We just have to guess and find out how we best fit the teacher's criteria in our assignments and projects. This is like luck isn't it? We confronted the teacher and she told us this is life. So no matter how hard I try, fate and luck is always going the outdo me isn't it? Then what's the point of me trying so hard when the probability of me getting a better grade wouldn't change anyway?
This is ridiculous, try so hard, worked hard to produce the best work we can, but it can't determine a good grade, I don't see the point. I'm sure it's not only me that faces this too, but I'm feeling really helpless. I'm not trying to say I should always get a good grade but this time, it's really not justified.
If I were to believe all these depends on luck, then better luck next time? Yeah right, I wish. I doubt people can always get good grades if they don't work hard. Not saying anyone got a good grade when they didn't work hard, but my group did work hard but it was all useless uh? Perhaps I'm taking this too serious, but in poly, one small lousy grade can totally pull us down and affect our future, why would I want to risk it with luck? Sighs, sad ttm lah ):
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